If you are reading this, then it means that my scheduled posting has worked. As someone has taken over my weekends, and I can’t keep uploading “in person” as it were.

This song is one that I wrote just as I began chatting with this someone. The song had the working title of “grunge song” and is me exploring being addicted to hate. Not just hate of course, but all the negative emotions that I have at many times been revelling in. It is easier to stick with what you know, even if it isn’t fun, because you what to expect and how to deal with it.

In fact the songs of the next few weeks will give an interesting insight into my pessimism about relationships. Even in the face of overwhelming evidence to the contrary. A lyric like “Rejection is ahead” seemed so certain when I wrote it….

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Lyrics:

Verse 1:
Ripples up the inlet
Feeling the tide
Craving to guide
Another sullen vignette
Joining the sect
Miasma inject
Scorch the earth, internal
Charcoal the mind
Daedra enshrined
Seduced by the infernal
Dragon I seek
Devour the weak

Chorus:
Fuelled by the pain
Drowning in hatred
Never attain
True loving instead
Drives me insane
Rejection is ahead
At least hate cocaine
Is with me til I’m dead

Do you love me
Do you love me?
Do you love me
Do you hate me?

Verse 2:
Rational delusion
Rejected by all
Darkness enthrall
Agony infusion
Hiding away
Perpetual decay
Questing for to worship
Despise the alone
All I have known
Need to cease the trip
Bleed myself dry
See your delight

 

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